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The urge of talking about this has been itchy for at least a week. Finally, I decided to find a way to organize my thoughts and express the anger and anxiety in me, in a more rational mood.

 

This summer I was harassed by my former professor in graduate school.

 

When I was in Beijing I went to visit him. The last time we met was three years ago, and people need to show respect to professors/teachers in China, as a cultural tradition. He invited me to this dinner party that his phd student celebrating the graduation with fellows from his lab. The dinner went like any other Chinese official banquet, there is one person who has most of the power and sits in the center of the table while everyone else (12+ students) has to kiss his ass. I was never a fan of this kind of thing, but I also understand if I want to go back to china with a good job offer, it is obligate to attend.

 

Everything was fine until we switched venue to a karaoke bar after dinner. My former advisor was slightly drunk, in a pretty damn good mood, since this phd student landed a damn good job offer. Things started going down at the bar. At first I just feel he came too close. He sat next to me, skin to skin. Then he forced me to sing a love duet with him and staring at me and trying to hold my hand as an act for the duet. I didn’t finish the song and moved to sit to the other corner of the room because I already raised suspicion. What confirmed my suspicion is when he walked across the room and sat next to me, again, skin to skin. What made me feel worse is when he started to touch my back and waist, acting like he was too drunk to support himself of accidently touched my skin. The last straw is that he slided his hand from my knee down to my shin. I stood up and told the host, the phd student, that I need to leave because I’m still suffering from jetlag.

 

I was so angry that I was trembling on the taxi back to my hotel. I wasn’t sure if I was angrier at myself or at the professor, a married man, a teacher of mine, who did this to me. I am still not sure about the object of my rage even today. I called my good friend in Beijing and told him what just happened. I remember telling my friend in the phone that, (1) I told the prof I have a boyfriend, (2) I wasn’t dressed inappropriate, i was wearing a cardigan, and my dress goes down to my knees, (3) I didn’t flirt with him at all. (4) did he do this to me because he thought i am easy since my boyfriend is a foreigner?  You see, Immediately I started to check if it’s me did something wrong, which may misguide him that I am interested to sleep with him.

 

It is not a solo instance. Now look back at my time in that institute as his student, he was trying to flirt with me from time to time. The most obvious one is that he offered to take me to some resort hotel outside of Beijing during weekend, which I said no thank you. But he didn’t dare to touch me physically back then. However, I did see him as a model or admired him as a student, and I didn’t tell anyone I had a boyfriend back then. And I am more open minded than any other fellow students in the lab. So maybe, perhaps, he is not the only one to blame? That is why I had the checklist going when I was in the taxi?

 

Every detail is still crystal clear. Every time I look back at this harassment and my time there as a student, I blame myself for not standing up against him at the scene and giving him a slap on the face. There were at least eight other female students at dinner, who are much younger, naïve, and innocent than me. I want to ask them if this monster being harassing them as well, and I want to tell them it is ok to fight back. But how could I? First of all, I do not know them and they know little about me. I have graduated from the lab five years ago and they only heard my name. I don’t know if he ever harassed anyone else. Secondly, which is more important, I didn’t stand up against him myself. How can they expect me as a role model? Lastly, the most important reason, is that, I have no idea where I can report him to? I am only an alumni of the institute, there is no liability issue from the school on me anymore. Moreover, I’m pretty sure even a registered student may have no place to file a complaint. People in charge may just let them shut up, or worse, give them a hard time to graduate for speaking ill of the professor who is in power. Students who report these kinds of things often end up with a slutty reputation as well (particularly if i was the only victim and my boyfriend is foreigner). So no one really wants to disclose those monsters. I’m also worried about the consequences apparently. Do I have any evidence that he harassed me? Students there in the same bar may see nothing. Since he only touched me and it’s not something worse, like many other victims suffering from penetration, people may just say, oh shut up, stop pretending to be a victim here. It is also that once I speak up, there is no possible network for me in this institute, it’ll be a bridge well burned. All these fears, these worries, stopped me from doing anything further. After that night, he texted me a few times while my time in Beijing, inviting me to dinner in private. I turned them down, politely. That’s the keyword, politely. I’m still so afraid to even confront with him.

 

During the phone call in the taxi, my friend tried to calm me. He is a salesman in a company. He said, yeah, it is really common that women in the workplace are often taken advantage. He has several female colleagues who have to deal with customers at dinner table from time to time. And because they need to sell products, there’s no other way but accept and suffer in silence. It’s a rule of thumb. There are other stories I heard from friends who work in China this summer. It is also true in academia, female faculty members will be invited to resort venues for meetings to “balance the gender”, which usually it’s the male professors are in charge of the meetings, and female profs are just there as dancing/dinner partners. Basically, escort. I’m sure same stories lying around and are easy to find. This makes me sad, how pathetic is the working environment for Chinese women. They already suffer significant prejudice from maternity leave and household responsibilities, which is worsen because of the second children policy. Now they are still being treated like a sex tool even they are as capable as their male colleagues?

 

 

I didn’t speak out when the #metoo went viral on facebook and twitter, because my case is cultural specific. Because of my background, I guess I’ll never be able to just blame the professor who gave me these endless self-doubt, or ever collect the courage to confront him or warn his students. Even this essay I’ll only post it on my personal website instead of share it on facebook like I usually do. But I do want to have some answers or clear thoughts on my other rage, to one of my friends’ reaction to this.

 

There are not many people aware of this assault. People I told are all my close friends that I trust. They are all very supportive and warm, offering me lots of assurance. However, there is this one friend, after I told him, asked me, are you sure he touched you not because he is just too awkward to show his affection to you?—The arguments with him is actually a trigger for my anger and willingness to write down these words.

 

To his question, I said no, it is not him being awkward, it is because this is not appropriate for him to do so. First of all, he is married, secondly, he was my professor and is still at a more powerful position than me. Then my friend raised an assumption, which is, would you still feel uncomfortable or unacceptable if he is young, attractive, unmarried? I told him that I may very likely to grow affection to this person, but I still think it’s not acceptable for him doing this. Especially you need approval before you can touch anyone! But I feel very offended by his assumption, it makes me judge myself that I only rejected him or feel disgusted because my professor who touched me against my own will is married and not attractive.

 

Not long ago we had a second argument, when the Hollywood harassment thing is going viral. This time this friend initiated the discussion. He said he doesn’t understand why people only feel powerless, to him, the predators’ behaviors are weird, which is not a power dynamic. This made me jump off my chair. I know this friend means no harm and we often argue about things. However, once again, I am extremely angry at what he just wondered. This sounds like the harassment victims are in a power equal position with those predators, and it is their fault to feel powerless and not fight back at the scene. You see, this is exactly what I have been blaming myself for. So, this time, instead of arguing with him, I just tell him to shut up. I told him, being a friend means you need to be supportive if anyone is going through a sexual harassment, not being judgmental.

 

I know this friend, as a victim himself once, has no intention to criticize me or blame me for not standing up. I still feel extremely angry at his tone. But later when I am less furious, I started to think if his argument has some merits. Maybe we do need to feel less powerless but analyze the predators’ behaviors so that we can find a solution? However, I can’t seem to be able to convince myself. Emotionally, I kind of still suffering the fact that I didn’t do anything to stop him, and this is why I am angry at my friend’s tone, because it is true that I did feel powerless and it is the reason I didn’t stand up, for myself and for others. However, that monster professor is the person who started it, it is not my fault not to feel his behavior weird, but rather disgusting, offensive, assaulting, and destructing. It is the society’s fault that women are often victims to these types of situation. Why they did it? Because they are sick. Because society gives them power to assault women at no cost. Is it weird? Should we think their behaviors as weird? I don’t care. It is WRONG for them to do so. WRONG, not weird.

 

Anyway, I’m still angry at myself today. For both not standing up, and for not winning the argument with my friend. This essay definitely helps to clear my thoughts and makes me less upset. I wish in the future, I can find peace with myself, and, the worst case scenario, if this type of thing ever happened again, I will pull myself together and stand up against it.

【9】Can REDD save the forest?

 

【明明应该是六月七日发布的日志】

第九个月的主题当然是学术。

二月份的时候老板就说让我参加CAG,the annual meeting of Canadian association of Geographers。因为committee member 德哥刚来我们系任教,受命主持其中一个ABM的session。不然之前Ray告诫过我说在CAG上讲ABM底下的人都听不懂的,AAG还差不多(AAG有关ABM的section持续了两天)。老板当时问我做个poster怎么样,我考虑了一下,脑残的说,要不还是做个presentation吧。后来发现当时自告奋勇的我是有多“无知者无畏”和“不自量力”。

这个会议也让我意识到了自己有多严重的procrastination。proposal很早就写好了,却一直不去动手调程序,觉得应该没有那么难搞定。在这种盲目的自信和懒惰中迎来了最后一个月的苦逼生活。还好有ray(我那几天跟ray发了大概一百多封邮件。。。)和吴龑还有其他人的帮忙,在报告的前两天跑出了实验结果。也因此意识到很多idea是好,但是在具体执行过程中编程的困难;以及反之,编程时可以产生的一些新的idea。交相辉映?互为促进?

初写proposal时的想法其实很简单,测测那种价钱最合适补偿农民。实验进行中才意识到“从上至下”的宏观计算和“从下至上”的模拟之间可能产生的巨大差别。用经济学原理计算出来的农民肯接受的补偿价格要远远高于模拟时能够产生作用的补偿价格。虽然我也希望能够给农民更多补偿,但是当经费有限或者发达国家以“太贵”为借口时,我们可以拿出模拟的结果为例证驳斥这种说法。当然,模拟还是有很多需要验证/改进的地方的。

后来和老板还有德哥商量,按我自己的想法就是越快出文章越好。老板是老好人,什么都OK,德哥就不行了,直接来了一句“我们都知道这个实验的内容是不够出文章的”。德哥,我不关心第一篇文章的质量啊,555。。。这么一来我想趁热打铁出文章的斗志又没有了。

总之,还是斗志不够,自我管理能力不够。

【8】Parenting

【明明应该是五月七日发布的日志】

不知不觉进入了加拿大的夏天,小草绿了,小花开了,遍地的蒲公英,满树的红桃花,风景美如画,词语真贫乏。

在这样一个夏天里,因为她爸要回国,傻姑bella同学暂居我家整整一个月,于是我就提前体会了一把当家长的酸甜苦辣。

1,养娃之苦

bella在我家的时候正好过了她的一岁生日,由于是拉布拉多和德国牧羊犬的混血,加上还是个puppy,格外活泼好动,运动量巨大,用同学和我老板的话说是“that dog is crazy, full of energy”。早上傍晚半夜各遛一次,早上和半夜不少于半个小时,傍晚那次因为草坪上经常有很多狗狗,所以就放她玩至少一个小时。饶是如此,bella同学回家之后还是不安分,会叼着球跑到你面前让你丢球跟她玩。有时在草坪上跟别的狗狗追逐一两个小时,累到回家就整个趴在地上大喘气,我和室友以为可以轻松一下了,没一会儿她就又活蹦乱跳的往你身上扑了。

有段时间室友不在,我还要准备一周之后的报告,每天被程序折磨的痛苦不堪,还有一个人照顾她的重任。有一天晚上骑车回去,遛bella一个小时,做饭,11点左右又冒雨骑车往学校赶,继续调程序,到半夜两点再骑车回去。这边大农村跟北京不一样,天一黑,路上没人没车,只有松鼠和星光。后来骑那些个大上坡的时候也不知道脸上是雨水还是泪。第二天早上九点跟导师有会,遛完bella准备出门,傻姑同学不知道发什么疯,追着我跑出来,拉都拉不回去。多亏有邻居joel帮忙,才hold住她,关进了屋。因为这一闹,就特别急的骑车往学校赶,在ring road上拐弯时没减速整个人从车上摔了出去。坐在地上傻了30秒,爬不起来。有司机停下了问我“are you okay?”,除了回答”i’m alright, thanks”,还能说什么,您能帮我带狗吗,您能帮我写程序吗?爬起来继续往办公室骑,还不能哭,因为马上要开会。

单亲妈妈真的不好当,不是谁都能成为女超人。

2,养育之乐

有一天想要去咖啡馆享受一个悠闲的下午,锁门的时候bella一如既往的趴在窗口用忧郁的小眼神瞅着我。于是在咖啡馆里,我的脑海里全是她那小眼神和可怜兮兮的模样,不到一个小时就受不了,赶紧回家了。去上学的时候留她一个人在家还好,可是我要出去玩,留她一个人在家就总是特别愧疚。心里有个东西需要你记挂着,即使分量不是那么重,也总是在你心里,吃不香,玩不high,“陌上花开缓缓归”么。

最开始的时候不习惯看电视或者吃饭时总有个毛茸茸热乎乎的“生物”、“东西”或者“别人”在你旁边蹭来蹭去;也不习惯一开门就有个庞然大物冲出来扑到你身上;更不忍心每天晚上睡觉关门时,bella总是可怜兮兮的在房门口蹭来蹭去试图进屋跟你一起睡(尽管一直到最后我都不知道晚上她怎么睡觉的)。可是她爸把她接走后的头几天,开门时再也没有期待,出门时亦不再有牵挂,淡淡的觉得心头空落落的。

这就是所谓的“永远的牵挂”吗?

3,邻居之善-side effects

后来带bella出去的时候,已经可以记得这个neighbourhood的所有狗狗的名字,常常跟他们的主人打招呼问好。我记得从东欧过来的john和他的两岁的狗狗mika,mika是猎犬,永远一副女王范儿,每次都自己叼着球优雅的跑大圈,bella就在后面哼哧哼哧的跟着追,狼狈的要死,却怎么都追不上。还有一个加拿大大叔david和他的狗marlo,七个月的金色拉布拉多,一岁之后就会被送去成为导盲犬。david听说我们是babysitting之后,就专门从家里拿了好多狗玩具,每次如果碰见我们都会帮我们遛bella多一会儿。还有一个大叔,我不记得他的名字了,坚持带我去走了旁边的woods,太美了,我后来专门去走过好多次,还在那里认识了trillium。

有一回bella自己从我们家后院跳出去了,我穿着拖鞋和睡衣就冲了出去,急得眼泪都出来了。开林肯加长的邻居老爷爷主动说,我开车带你们在这附近转转,你这样跑要找到什么时候。我们开车在neighborhood里转了一圈又一圈,bella被车撞倒在血泊里的画面,bella找不到家变成流浪狗的画面,许效回来骂我的画面,像放电影一样在我脑海里播放。过了漫长的时间,终于在一家人门口看见了被拴在门口的bella。原来两个大姐看见bella乱跑,就合力拽住了她。但是因为狗链上没有电话,地址也是许效家的,所以只好把狗狗拴在门口,等着主人来找。我跑过去一把抱住了bella,傻姑还茫然不知的在那里活蹦乱跳,让我哭笑不得。

第二天我买了蛋糕去答谢开车的爷爷和那两位帮我们拽住傻姑的大姐。爷爷家好认,因为门口有加长林肯车,可是因为太激动,却忘记了那两位大姐的地址。找了一圈,还敲开了几家的门,未果,后来就自己把蛋糕给吃了。姗琪说她后来遛bella的时候还被那两个大姐认出来了,结果也没记住她们家地址。

所以要找房子的时候,想想这么好的neighborhood舍不得,就决定继续在这里住下了。

4,担忧

我问了好多朋友,说,我觉得我对bella的照顾,是责任多于爱,那种发自内心的爱。我会担心她是否吃好睡好开心了,但是是基于父母的义务,而不是主动自发的那种感情。如果她乖乖的,我会非常高兴;如果她不听话,我会很严厉的训斥她。那万一我以后对自己的小孩儿也是责任多于爱怎么办?要是他们表现的不好,我就不爱他们了怎么办?墨西哥大姐说,有时候责任和爱是连在一起的,你没法真正分开他们;况且你知道bella只在你们家待一个月,潜意识里知道不能放太多感情进去。巴基斯坦大姐说,哦,怀孕的时候荷尔蒙一分泌,你就明白所有的事情都不一样了。三哥也说,for sure you’ll love your own children.

好吧,我就这么希望吧。

傻姑bella,希望你跟你爸爸住的开心,你未来的老妈会发自内心的爱你。

 

迎国庆五毛党出动——穿越照片大放送

    去年四月份经不住老大忽悠,回所参加了所庆文艺汇演朗诵的选拔,然后就毫无悬念的上了,于是就一路参加培训,到处汇演到今年9月20号。不过也不能抱怨什么,因为自己也一直很喜欢跟文字和朗诵相关的工作,不管是做校报编辑还是编小册子,小学就参加了那个什么“雏鹰之声”,在玉泉的时候也负责播新闻。只是拖拖拉拉一年多,各个舞台到处表演,太久了,总算是为所庆七十周年进行了最后一场表演,结束了。因此,虽然有五毛的嫌疑,不过好歹是给自己总结一下吧。

    《科学考察赞歌》是我们所图书馆王老师和已经退休的吴老师负责的,他俩一直都是文艺骨干,合唱、独唱都很厉害。请了一对每次出现都是PRADA的舞蹈老师编排了整个节目,教了我们整整三个月。还从十分钟版本改到八分钟版,又改到六分钟版本,我们的朗诵词也一删再删。。。

    这个节目真的很宏大,引用王老师博客里的话“《科学考察赞歌》有我所近70名职工、研究生参加编排,其中舞蹈演员43人,造型演员12人,朗诵演员2人,工作人员12人”,我和齐老师两个负责朗诵。其实朗诵只是穿插引出三段不同表现意义的舞蹈,第一段是中国地质大学的校歌《勘探队之歌》,“是那山谷的风,吹动了我们的红旗;是那狂暴的雨,冲刷了我们的帐篷”,我们一群男男女女同学都穿着银色的类似太空服的勘探队服,跳着类似样板戏的舞蹈。。。而且还要在地上摔来摔去。。。特别可怜。。。

       第二段是双人舞,穿的番茄炒鸡蛋的服装(后来也被删掉了);第三段是藏舞,据说是因为我们所在青藏高原上取得了很多成就。。。

        以上blabla了那么久,大家可以直接忽略。这一张才是劲爆的重点!你们找得出来哪个是我吗?!!哈哈哈,囧叔说像四十岁的我。。。

         其实原先为了突出老师和学生的形象,是做了一套西瓜红的连衣裙,不过被领导批评说不庄重,只好换成上面那套官太太装,红色裙子就没机会穿了。好可惜,红裙子才比较正常学生气吧。。。

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排练的时候我一直是这么一副臭脸。。。上台就不能摆臭脸,得是打了鸡血的表情。我深刻的觉得在台上的大照片一曝光我一定嫁不出去了,就是党国时期的姨太太形象啊,所以就让它安静的躺在电脑里吧。。。

这是换好了衣服但还没有化妆和做头发的时候。

      

菊子曰 本文用菊子曰发布

京城真是个文化活动丰富的地方啊

周末一个人不知道去哪儿的话,点开豆瓣同城一堆活动,随便挑一个就可以消磨时间了(话说我现在其实是时间不够用啊)。上次是小范儿从遥远的西双版纳过来,跟她一起去了远在十号线双井的麻雀瓦舍看了一场“内蒙说唱军团进军北京”的演出,特别有趣;昨天夜里又发现今天上午麻雀瓦舍有场相声表演,于是一早就跑去了。

一、只听懂了一句话的演出

我和小范儿准备进场时,听到门口的几个观众相互介绍“这个是我同学,也是蒙古的”,当时我们就心想,完了,估计我们是唯二的不是蒙古人的观众了吧。不出所料,我们进去后发现观众中的男性都膀圆腰粗,女孩子也都是大块头,估计都是蒙古来的吧。演出还没开始,坐我右边的大叔问我:“你是蒙古的?”我回答说不是,他又问:“那你爱好嘻哈?”经过我的再次否认之后,他自我介绍说:我老家蒙古的,平常爱好嘻哈。一边说,还一边来了几个嘻哈基本的动作。我和小范儿的敬仰之情如滔滔江水啊,忙不迭的请他到时候帮我们翻译歌词。

于是表演正式开始了,果真全部都是蒙语,虽然一句都听不懂,可还是觉得很有趣,跟着节奏晃一晃也很开心。只有中间的一首英文歌,我听懂了一句:you are the prettiest girl.除此之外,什么都没明白。。。问那位大叔,他也无奈的回答:他们太快了,我也没听懂。。。囧,大叔您到底是不是蒙古人啊!

中场休息的时候,几个人就开车走了,小范儿问他们听懂没,那几个年轻人摇头说没有。哈哈哈。下半场大叔终于给我们翻译了一个词:Hong So La, 他说是“对不起”的意思。于是我们整场演出就只记住了“Hong So La”,而且还是以一种凶悍的口吻念出来的“对不起”。。。。

额尔敦毕力格,简称EB——张浩摄影,我从豆瓣拷过来的

这是那天表演的几个乐队里我最喜欢的一个了,因为我觉得他的神态和动作(耸肩膀)超级像蛇叔叔,连精瘦的劲头也很像!

二、多么显著的地域差异啊

今天是相声专场,第一个《旧语新说》很不错,以时下流行语为主题,还顺带调侃了一下最近的“郭德纲徒弟殴打记者”事件;有一个老大爷的快板《老北京小吃》也不错,虽然他中间有两次顿了一下;但是我很不喜欢那个相声小段,是以八国联军攻陷北京为主题的,我特别讨厌他那种老北京强调的藐视和讽刺,不管是对“八国联军”、“清政府”还是“义和团”,都特别刻薄,不知道这是不是他们表演相声小段惯用的伎俩,只是我很不喜欢罢了。最后那个《杂学唱》特别有意思,以“各地域的差异从他们的戏曲唱词中可以体现”为主题,他们用西厢记为例,举了江浙评弹和东北二人转展现其差异;还用京剧和豫剧的“华容道”唱词为例,我当时听到都笑翻了!!回来就上网搜了确切的唱词。

这个是京剧《华容道》中曹操为了劝服关二爷念在过去待他的情分上放其一马的唱词,看看这几个意象多大气:“金”、“银”、“美酒红袍”。

“想当年我待你恩德不小,

上马金下马银美酒红袍,

官封到汉寿亭侯爵禄不小,

难道说大丈夫忘去故交!”

咱们再来看看豫剧的两个版本:

“在曹营我待你哪样不好?

顿顿饭四个碟两个火烧

绿豆面拌疙瘩你嫌不好,

厨房里忙坏了你曹大嫂!”

“顿顿饭包饺子又炸油条

你曹大嫂亲自下厨烧锅燎灶,

大冷天只忙得热汗不消。

白面馍夹腊肉你吃腻了,

又给你蒸一锅马齿菜包。”

好吧,我服气了。中原人民果真是实在啊。“火烧”、“绿豆面疙瘩”、“包饺子”、“炸油条”、“肉夹馍”,而且不管是哪个版本,曹大嫂都要亲自下厨啊,好歹人也是丞相夫人吧。。。

难怪京剧成为我们国家的代表,要是豫剧的话,会被人笑死吧。。。

晚婚晚育

师姐终于还是决定去某部委做后,前两天入职培训带回来一本手册,我翻着玩,看到一条政策:

职工本人结婚假期为3天。双方晚婚的(男25周岁、女23周岁以上初婚登记的为晚婚),增加奖励假期7天。

已婚妇女年满二十四周岁初育的为晚育。

苍天啊!我已经到了晚婚晚育的年龄了?!

Afec-X 2009–Chapter CAO Zijuan and WU Lan

Hi, guys. It seems Dodo had disappeared for quite a long time, but now she decides to restart writing again.

Well, first I want to tell you an intersting story. One day I received a e-mail from a totally stranger. His name was Tarbish and he found my blog of Navendu through Google, which “summarized very well Navendu’s character, and the place he has in other people’s heart“. Tarbish has never met Navendu, but they exchanged mails for identifying flowers at the webpage http://www.flowersofindia.net. He said my blog help him find the various mode of Navendu, which made me very happy and decided to keep writing, describing all of you in Afec-X!

OK, this time it would be  WU Lan and CAO Zijuan, the “two girls” as Orr always called.

the long and beautiful hair of CAO Zijuan, photoed by MO Xiaoxue

WU Lan and CAO Zijuan are both from Peking University, one of the best universities in China. They major in biology, especially on wildlife protecting. The characters of their major  make them running around, living in field for months, watching pandas mating, etc. It’s an amazing major, which I always dream about, but claims both healthy physical and emotional conditions. The two girls are from South China, appearing beautiful, slim, tender, whose occupation you might consider as teachers or nurses. Well, at least it’s my first impression about them. But as course going, I found them really powerful in the field. Really powerful women! Once we were in the rubber plantation, there are a lot climbing and downhill, I was after CAO Zijuan in the line, she climbed facilely through the way I would never try. WU Lan is amazing too, she gave us a lot of surprises, a fresh jackfruit as dessert for dinner,  picked by herself from the tree for example. WU Lan is good at photographing too, her camera has a large lens. I though she once snap a picture of mine, when I was seriously discussing the independent project with Chuck at the rubber plantation. WU Lan promised to post that pic to me, I guess she has forgotten this for a whole year and still forgetting it….

pretty smile of WU Lan, photoed by MO Xiaoxue

The most amazing thing about two girls happened on the last day we spend at Xishuangbanna. After the crazy party we had, they and LIU Yongjie (Jerry) and another boy rode on two motorcycles, running to the pumelo forest in the midnight, climbing up to the pumelo trees, picking as many pumelos as filling a whole gunny bag! Then each room of ours had a fresh pumelo! We had a pumelo party!

After our course, WU Lan and her family went to Tibet from Kunming. I believe she must enjoy the field and take a lot of pictures!

________________world cup________________________________

I’m not a big fan of football, but after yesterday’s game between German and Argentina, I decided to support German as much as I can! 4:0!! Maradona, you could sing “Don’t cry for me, Argentina” to confess, instead of streaking!

还能再不靠谱一点么?

把7月3日下午2点记成3点,坐了近一个小时的公交到了现场发现讲座已经进行一个小时接近尾声了。。。

会议通知看过很多遍还是把开始日期记成结束日期,于是报名的考试和会议时间赤裸裸的冲突了,再花500大洋推迟考试日期。。。

因为关后备箱时用力过大被的士司机称赞:你劲儿还挺大嘛。。。

跟本科的师兄师姐们一起吃饭根本不知道可以说什么,连祝酒词也想不出来。。。

每天晚上骑车去买半个西瓜,一边吃一边看friends或者樱桃小丸子。。。

祁师兄和陈师姐也要毕业离开了,在办公室就更只有我一个人了。。。

就像Friends的主题曲唱的那样,it’s not your day, your week, your month or even your year。。。

我的双学位真是白学了

开始搜集珠江三角洲的统计数据了,因为要做到县一级,得翻很多本统计年鉴,甚至一年一年的统计公报。

今天翻到深圳市罗湖区的统计公报,找三产业产值时,发现这么一段话:

初步核算,全年本区生产总值(GDP)531.61亿元,比上年增长7.5%。其中,第一产业增加值0.54亿元,下降21.8%;第二产业增加值91.50亿元,增长9.9%;第三产业增加值439.57亿元,增长6.9%,第三产业对本区生产总值增长的贡献率为82%。

看到增加值的第一反应自然是跟上一年的比较,可是把三个产业的增加值加起来,发现GDP531.61=第一产业增加值+第二产业增加值+第三产业增加值。

是概念理解错了吧。

我搜了一下,在“中华人民共和国国家统计局”的网站上发现一份官方解释:

GDP可以通过三种方法计算得到:分别为生产 法、收入法和支出法。生产法是从生产的角度衡量所有常住单位在核算期内新创造的价值,是国民经济各行业在核算期内新创造的价值和固定资产的转移价值的总 和,也即国民经济各行业增加值的总和。用公式表示如下:

增加值 = 总产出中间消耗

GDP  =

好吧,应该是第一、第二、第三  产业增加值,而不是第一产业、第二产业、第三产业  增加值。

国家统计局网站上还说

我国目前以生产法GDP为准。

这个意思应该是我国任何地区的统计年鉴或者公报中的GDP都是由第一、二、三产业增加值构成的吧。况且其他两种算法更麻烦些,统计部门应该也不会采用吧。所以从不同统计年鉴中找到的GDP应该是统一口径,具有可比性的。

可是产业增加值是不是我通常认为的产业产(总)值呢?

见到你们真好,真的

去年没有见到黄牛,我后悔了整整一年,所以今年一定不能再错过,尤其是锋兄烽兄也在。(我为什么每次聚会完都会写一篇歌功颂德的赞扬稿?大概是怕被踢出来?。。。)

中午黄牛在飞信上问我晚上来不来的时候,他说:那晚上多喝点吧。我还以为会有很多酒,可以让我喝得晕晕乎乎的然后抛开单词、文章还有老板的连环催命邮,爬上床睡个安稳觉,结果锋兄烽兄的一瓶葡萄酒完全不够大家分吧。。

下午收到本科一个老师的QQ留言,把本科时他对我的作业评语扫描了发给我,说“之后再也没有遇见过这么让人深刻的作业”。于是就一个人对着那留言哭了半天。我很不愿意跟老师承认自己已经一天一天接近平庸,淹没在庸常的人群中,即使再努力,似乎永远也不能超越平庸了。

所以晚上的聚会见到大家真的很高兴呐,不论是像极了sheldon的黄牛本尊(BTW,我目睹他袭击了好几个正太),还是知识丰富的锋兄烽兄,还有皮肤很好的三叉,或者是一直被我缠住问豆瓣相关不能下班的su27,和从不浪费时间且和葡萄穿情侣装的黄牛分身。

一个人从马甸花园飚车回来,懒得推车过天桥,就顺着北辰西桥和诸多轿车一起直接骑过了北四环。在这个凉爽的夏夜,飚车还是很爽的。

只是晚上回来宿舍失手掉了项链,吊坠碎了一角。今天唯一的遗憾吧。

以前某人老说我脆弱,搞得我也以为自己是林妹妹的本质。wk,脆弱个毛啊,姐坚强的很,压力大了,受不了了,找个角落哭个半个小时,彪悍的女生又可以过彪悍的人生了。

和一群彪悍的人一起!

啊,彪悍又文艺的人!

最后,为了让本篇博文显得有点营养,丢几个单词好了:defy  gravity是飞檐走壁;Impenetrable Defence金钟罩;debone slope化骨绵掌。